It's pretty amazing what can happen in fifty days. I've been doing the Project 365, and I haven't missed a day yet. When I was sick for a straight week it was sure hard, but I kept up. At times I think I'm just taking the same picture over and over again, not doing anything interesting. But I keep at it. I'm trying to make them a bit more interesting by doing things with my friends, and I think it's working at spicing it up, but I still kind of have that sinking feeling that my 365 is just so boring. Doesn't mean I'll give up, but oh well.
Today I went on a walk by myself. No cellphone or a friend with me. Just my iPod, me, and some warm clothes. I went to the brow, and did the stairs, and came back. It was bloody cold out but doing the stairs warmed me up. I tried to take some good pictures, but unless I have a place to sit my camera down and have the aperture open long all I get are pictures like above. That one I purposely wiggled, but the ones I didn't just look stupid. I'm going to try and do the stairs more often, as well as take more walks. And go back onto weight watchers. Gotta get healthy. Speaking of that I need to get Poppa into swim-stuff so that his hip and knee get a bit of exercise too. And since he won't go alone, I know I'll be going with him too. So that will be nice. Even though what girl isn't subconscious about their body in a bathing suit?
Body issues are something I think no matter what I do I will ever be able to get over. Sure I can accept what I am, and in a way I believe I have accepted that, but it doesn't mean I am any more likely to absolutely love and embrace it. Perhaps the acceptance is more like an apathy, and that in itself is a pretty bad growing trend that the society is feeding into people. That apathy in any regard is just another thing.
Apathy isn't something anyone should embrace. This is your life, live it, or hate it, but don't just nothing it.
