you go on and i'll be happier

So in the midst of everything right now, I'm trying to pull myself together for my hair. As vain as that is, it's kinda like a way away from life. It's frivolous and can change many times. Right now my hair is a version of a sunset of colours. It's blonde in the front, an orange-red through the hair and the ends are a brown. Thanks to the wonders of bleaching I'm looking more like a clown every day. However, the good thing about this is the light at the end of the tunnel. My hair is really naturally dark. So in my effort to go blonde (which is already boring me) I've got a lot of options available. What I'm going to do, is bleach my hair one last time (the third and final trial). I doubt it will go a consistent colour, however I'm going to really just be focusing on the orange-red and the ends. I'll toy around with that let my hair breathe for a week, and then I'll go red.

Now there are a lot of different shades of red I can roll into. Especially because I'm looking for a job, I think I'm really limited to versions that aren't as outlandish as I would really like. So Little Mermaid Red is out of the question. When I was 14 or 15, I was finally allowed to dye my hair, and I went that type of bright red hair. I loved it, but sadly not sensible. Oh how times have changed, and how much my teenage angst self would just hate me.



Alison Sudol also known as the front woman for A Fine Frenzy, is amazing. And her red hair is absolutely enviable. However, upon further inspection it's clear she has various colours of red. This had been my first introduction and spark of green envy. It's in the 'Almost Lover' video. Perhaps it's the shading of the image, but looking at it, there are a lot of orange hues. More than I'd like, which led me to believe that maybe a browner shade might work.



Led me to this version of her red hair. Which when I actually took a good look at, I was surprised that it just wasn't really red. It's brown with some brassiness. Before looking around at samples of her hair I just went by this video thinking it was her regular signature red. I was pretty surprised. However, this definitely wasn't the version for me. I want a bit more red rather than a brassy brown.



Came upon this one and found myself disappointed again. It's too orange for my liking. At this point I was thinking perhaps I should look in other places for my red. I'm kind of a visual person, and I won't lie I like my hair being styled after another style that I like. So I kind of want to see or imagine the end product.



Then I found this one. In that shot it's a bit darker than I'd like, but the second I saw the video I started talking to my friend how I really wanted it. Now with my bleached hair I can once in for all get a good shade. Rather than tinting my dark hair with a bit of a colour.

We'll see how it goes regardless. This weekend coming up or the weekend after I'll do my bleaching again, if I like it throw the toner on, and then from there see where to go. Regardless it was fun writing this :) Self indulgence for the win.

i don't need no parachute

I have two days to write 17k for nanowrimo! Can I do it? Probably. Will I? Not sure just yet. I have specific plot points that I would like to write but I wish they were already done. I did 50k+ in September on my own without any word wars, why is it that when NaNoWriMo comes around I can't seem to do it? Especially with amazing things in rewards for finishing.

I deviated from my diet plan too. I keep on pushing it off until tomorrow, the slacker's favourite day.

In terms of music today I found that Cheryl Cole did Parachutes before Ingrid Michaelson. I really don't care for Cheryl's version, the video works better than Ingrid's though.

Cheryl Cole's version.
Ingrid Michaelson's version.

this is my winter song tonight

My name is Ashley Rose, and I'm 22. I live with my grandparents to help my Nana who is going through various cancer treatments. I will do anything for them without a second of hesitation. I have an awesome cat who I think came to me to keep me sane in this crazy world. Her name is Joplin, and yes I am quite fond of the term crazy cat lady. I'm a college dropout, and at the very moment quite unemployed, I'm also quite the fattie. I'm a writer, one day I'll be an author. I love listening to music, in fact there isn't one moment of the day where I'm not really listening to music. I have the most wonderful godson Logan, of whom I adore like no other. I don't need any children of my own when I have that beast. I have some of the most amazing friends, and I'm more than grateful for them. They've been the crutches to my life more often than not.

Winter is my favourite season, red/orange is my favourite colour, I can't choose if I'm a dog or cat person, Ariel is my favourite Disney princess. I have over 150 books. Kelley Armstrong is my favourite author. I love the Harry Potter series and intend to get a tattoo displaying that love one day. Janeae Garofolo is one of my idols. I have two tattoos and intend to get more. I'm not a neat freak despite being a Virgo, however I need things in their specific order. I consider myself Pagan, but I love learning about other beliefs and religions. I am trying to practice meditation, and learn more about Chakras in order to help myself become a better person.

This blog is every and anything that comes to my mind. My journey with weightloss, as well as my adventures into trying to get a new job, and other fun issues.